Temptation

207.8

I have no explanation for the weight above. I didn't weigh yesterday because I was staying with a friend in Tucson, and my last weight was 208.4. I really didn't think I did much this weekend to facilitate weight loss: I drank wine and ate out every meal. Maybe unsatisfied lust burns extra calories? ;)

I had a lot of fun in Tucson. It's always good to see my friends there, and of course, the city feels like home since it was my home for 6+ years. I missed seeing a couple of folks, but hope to catch up with them when they're up here in Phoenix in the next month or so.

I will say that I must be getting used to living in Phoenix because this trip back to Tucson didn't make me long to be back there as much as my last trip 5 weeks ago. Sounds like I'm adjusting to being here. . . .

I've talked to MM a few times since my last entry. I called him for about 3 minutes on Saturday morning, just to thank him for a good time on Friday night; we exchanged a few text messages on Saturday night; and we had a 45-minute phone conversation last night when I got back. At his suggestion, we are meeting for dinner on Tuesday evening after work. And we are planning to get together Friday night, too. He wants me to come over to his place on Friday, but I'm undecided about whether that is a good idea.

I told him I'd come to his house on Friday if he promised not to try to lure me into his bed. To which he responded "why would you want me to promise that?" I told him that I know he's a man of his word, and that if he promises that, he'll stick to it. His response to that was "I can't promise that." LOL

As tempted as I am to just go ahead and have sex with him--and believe me, I am tempted--I think it will be a better thing in the long run to wait. What I know about him so far I like very much. . . . but the fact of the matter is that I don't really know him that well yet. I get the distinct impression that once we sleep together, we are both going to become quite preoccupied with that aspect of our relationship. Hell, based on last night's conversation, we are both already preoccupied with that part of the relationship! LOL But actually going there is only going to increase this tendency.

I see potential here for something longer than a few dates, and I think that's the primary reason I want to hold off. I don't doubt that he will continue to see me even if I have sex with him; I just want to prolong this phase of the relationship a little. And I know it is somewhat perverse of me to feel this way, but I kind of enjoy NOT satisfying my lust for a man. Plus, he is extremely affectionate now, and who knows if that will end once we sleep together. ;)

One last side note, and then no more on MM today. I learned last night that he has had asthma and severe allergies since he was a young child and is allergic to dogs. :-( I don't know what I am going to do about Sebastian when/if MM ever comes over to our house. . . . I'm a little afraid he might have an asthma attack in my bed! LOL Oh well, I'll worry about it later.

Not sure what this week will hold at work. I don't have much on my calendar, but one of the partners approached me on Friday to work on a few cases with him representing governmental entities. These cases have lots more paperwork because of all the bureaucracy involved, so I'll probably spend a chunk of time just getting up to speed on those files.

I can hardly believe it's already October 1st! Three months from today will be 2008. I must say that, in a way, I will be glad to see 2007 come to an end. It's been a difficult year for me in many ways, with lots of changes. Time will tell whether these changes will turn out to be for the better.