Monday, July 26, 2010

Frustrated & a little angry

216.6 at home
217.0 at JC

Despite being 100% on plan for five out of seven days this week, I only lost 0.6 lbs at today's weigh-in. I know I should be happy to see the scale moving down at all, and I know that if I continue to lose 0.6 lbs every week, I will eventually get to my goal weight (in over two years) . . . . but I'm pissed.

This morning's number on the scale was the highest one I'd seen in days. By last Wednesday, I'd gotten down to 215.something every day and even had one day of 214.4. But MM and his parents wanted to go out for Mexican food last night, and even though I made one of the better available choices, I know that it was higher in fat and sodium than what I should've been eating. Couple that with lunch and dinner out on Saturday (lunch was sushi & miso; dinner was a salad with grilled chicken and no dressing), and it's not hard to see why the scale is up this morning.

The other, main reason I am feeling so frustrated and angry is that this level of effort at weight loss used to work for me. In prior weight loss attempts, if I were exercising 3-4 days a week--as I did last week--and eating on-plan 5-6 days, I would consistently lose weight. Now it seems that in order to see any kind of significant loss, I am going to have to be on-plan every day and/or step up the frequency of my exercise.

Is this possible? Theoretically, yes. It's hard for me to imagine, though, that I could follow any eating plan 100% and never have a slip-up, especially given how often I eat out. Unless I want to give up a significant portion of my social life, eating out is going to continue to be a part of my life. And given that I have been forcing myself to go to the gym three days a week--and that I am unable to exercise outside this time of year due to the near-daily high heat index--I would think that exercising 5-6 days a week is pretty much out of the question. (Not to mention the other commitments I have which might prevent me from doing that.)

On the one hand, I only have myself to blame. I ate what I ate, and those choices caused the result they caused.

On the other hand, I don't understand why this has to be so frickin' difficult! I am, by a conservative estimate, nearly 70 lbs overweight. It would seem to me that, for someone my current size, SOME positive changes should result in weight loss. I shouldn't have to work my a$$ off at this point to see decent losses at the scale. I anticipate having to work harder when I'm closer to my ideal weight range, but I did not anticipate it being such a struggle to lose weight when I'm well over 200 lbs.

Vent over. It is what it is. I suppose all I can do is keep working at it.


JessiferSeabs said...

I am 99.9% sure that the scale was the result of sodium... it usually takes me 2 days to debloat from sushi, and mexican food is very salty too...