Thursday, October 02, 2008

What have I done?


I mentioned that I went ahead and signed up for the fitness boot camp starting October 6th. Now that I'm thinking about the reality of it, I'm regretting it. I have no clue how I'm going to manage to get up at 5:00 a.m. on Monday! I have a hard time getting out of bed before 7:00 these days!!

I've often lamented my lack of self-discipline and intrinsic motivation on this blog. Knowing that I apparently lack the capacity to self-motivate, let's focus on other things that will spur me to get up and go. First, I paid $199 for the four-week boot camp, and it will be totally throwing away my money if I don't go to each session. Second, MM will mock me unmercifully if I wimp out: he's already said that he thinks there's only a "50/50" chance that I'll actually follow through with this. Grrrr. . . .

I know from past experience that the desire to look better--whether in general or for a specific occasion like, say, a wedding--doesn't seem to motivate me. [sigh] I'm such a lazy slug.

I will say this: I have been hella tired for the past few days with no reason whatsoever. I actually had a very healthy day yesterday eating-wise. . . . that is, until I got home and decided to bake MM some chocolate chip cookies. . . . and ended up eating four(!) of them myself. DOH! You would think that the desire to have more energy would motivate me. . . .

Because I know I'm not sick or pregnant, I can only attribute my lack of energy to my eating and exercise habits, which have not been the best of late. I haven't gone to the gym since last Thursday, and the jury is still out on whether I'm going tonight: MM may want to skip to watch the VP debate, and it's doubtful that I'll hit the gym without him. (Yeah, yeah, I know I *could*.)

Well, the boot camp is only 12 sessions. I know I will get a benefit out of it. . . . hell, I might even end up enjoying it! Once it finally cools off here (say, like around Halloween?), I'd like to start hiking again, and I am in no shape to do that currently. There are so many good reasons to do this and only reason--laziness--not to!

On a sad note, I had to say goodbye last night to my friend KH and her family. They are moving to the DC area tomorrow because she's taken a cool new job with the federal appeals court there. I will miss them! It makes me really regret all the times I didn't take advantage of having them living 5 mintues away and spend more time with them. Ah well.

Work is the same old, same old. It's pretty hard to do a job that's 90% reading and writing when you're tired all the time. [sigh]

This weekend I have promised MM that I will spend time with him doing whatever he wants (in honor of his birthday coming up on Oct. 7). We are having dinner with his parents at Maggiano's on Saturday night and going shopping for new clothes for him on Sunday. Other than that, we have no definite plans, but I am at his mercy. ;-)

Gotta get back to work. . . .


TUWABVB said...

Have I mentioned that the header on your website makes me salivate?

Anyway, I just wanted to drop you a line and let you know that I know how you feel. It's hard to function when one is constantly tired, and and I've noticed that with myself, even though I know it's likely attributable to bad eating and exercice, I can't seem to break the cycle. You can do the boot camp - I have faith in you. Just remember that sleep isn't that important! You can get more the next night.

Also, your comment about reading and writing made me laugh - when my husband and I first met, we worked at the same law firm (I was an attorney, he was in IT). Anyway, as we got to know each other, he stopped by my office very now and then. One day he said, "Every time I stop by your office you are always reading or that all you do?" I said, "Yep" and he said, "Your job sucks." :)

Have faith in yourself!