Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Repulsed

220.4

I am a fat, disgusting pig.

I have no one to blame but myself for this weight. Well, and maybe bad genes, to a certain extent. Although nothing in my genes compelled me to order a big ol' plate o' nachos for dinner last night rather than opting for a healthier choice. (My not-fat husband ordered a chicken Caesar salad.)

I have my gym gear with me today and will be visiting the gym for the first time in about two weeks. So that's a start.

However, breakfast was a caffe mocha (non-fat, natch) and a mushroom piadini from Starbucks. Not so great a start in terms of food choice.

5 comments:

Flying Monkeys said...

OMG! My scale is going the wrong way and it feels like I can't stop it because I'm eating to make myself feel better. I'm sick, sick I say!

I'm feeling you and your not repulsive.

Hilly said...

I woke up last week and felt the exact same way. Here's to you...making it go down!

Land family said...

Me too. Gonna pull up a trough next to you. Seriously, WTF? Why do we sit back complacently and watch the scale go up? Doesn't sound like you have fluctuated that wildly, 5 pounds?

You'll get it. I'll get it, maybe. Food addiction blows. No doctors take it seriously...don't know what to do about it except say I understand unfortunately. I feel powerless. :(

TUWABVB said...

Please don't feel this way about yourself. I know I do the same thing, but I hate reading it about you!

I'm still on board for a challenge by the way - I was sick this weekend a bit and wasn't able to email you like planned, but I've thought up a few ideas and could be ready to start in a day or so if you are still game? Let me know!

SavyArt said...

It took me a long time to learn, but calling myself names like you did here really does only make it worse - it's as if you feel the need to punish yourself. And really? Where is the point in that?

I've been where you are (well, at 222 lbs I started to refuse to weigh myself... so I actually was higher) - and through it all? The self-abuse never got rid of one stupid pound.

Might as well not do it then, eh? ;)