Rambling and random musings

I never post here anymore

2011-04-30T22:11:00.001-07:00

Apologies to anyone who still checks this blog. Between my new job, which blocks blogger, and another blog I write, I don't post much here anymore.Ironically enough, though, I am making some progress on weight loss. My sister and I have been following the Metabolism Miracle program for the past 5+ weeks. I weighed 222.2 when we started and 207.8 this morning, so I have lost 14.4 lbs so far.

Not about the scale

2011-03-02T08:21:00.004-07:00

219.0I have been "eating clean" for over a week, and I have to say, I am feeling great. My energy level is generally higher, with no ups and downs during the day; I wake up feeling refreshed, not sluggish; even when I have a headache, I don't feel like I just want to crawl in bed (unless it's a bad migraine); I have had no heartburn or GI upset whatsoever. I'm only hungry at appropriate times--

Solid

2011-02-28T10:47:00.003-07:00

219.0The number above is solid; I have seen it, or something just marginally higher, the past three mornings. It's a modest decrease, but I'll take it.I am really liking this clean eating thing, and so far, I am not feeling deprived. I had lunch with my BFF Saturday and had sliced mango for dessert (instead of my usual choice of brownie a la mode). I was able to stick with my plan at dinner out

Dear Universe

2011-02-24T13:23:00.005-07:00

220.0 (OK, still UGH, but trending down)Dear Universe,If it is at all possible, could I please have one headache-free day this week? I know that the makers of Ad.vil, Ex.ced.rin, and aspirin need to stay in business, but I think I've done enough for them of late.Maybe if I could actually spend one whole day without a headache, I could get back to the gym. Just sayin'.Kthxbai.

Clean eating

2011-02-22T09:26:00.005-07:00

219.6The weight above is a blip, caused by dehydration and not eating much yesterday due to having a migraine all afternoon. I have been trending around 222-223 of late. Ugh.A while back, I read this book. At the time I thought "Wow, this would be really great to try." But I didn't try it.Starting today, I am trying it. I started the day with one of the most filling breakfasts I have ever eaten:1

Fear and (self-)loathing in Phoenix

2011-01-26T09:30:00.002-07:00

221.2Yep, you read that number correctly. My weight continues to creep up. I haven't been to the gym in at least a month. I'm back to eating 1-2 servings of fruits and vegetables a day, if that.Most of my clothes are fitting tighter. There are a few pairs of pants I don't even wear to work anymore because they are too uncomfortable to sit in all day.Today I woke up feeling anxious for no reason I

(tap,tap) Hello? Is this thing on?

2011-01-03T08:28:00.002-07:00

I seem to have (mostly) abandoned my blog. Too bad, as it was five years ago this month that I started it.Even more sad: I am heavier today than the first time I posted. By a lot. Though I didn't post my weight for the first few months, the first post on which I did include my actual weight said I was 202.4 pounds (and I was horrified by this number).This morning's weight was 18 pounds heavier

10/27/10

2010-10-27T10:02:00.001-07:00

213.2 (official JC WI on Fri. 10/22--did not weigh since)I did return to Jenny Craig last Friday, as planned. However, I really didn't re-start the plan until Monday. So we'll see if I lose any weight this week.Life is hectic and crazy this week. It is my last week at my current job, and in typical fashion, I have left a bunch of must-do projects until the last minute. I am also going out of

Turning myself in

2010-10-19T15:47:00.001-07:00

213.2 (was 215.2 yesterday!)I'm going back to Jenny Craig on Friday. I've been off the rails for long enough and need to get back to the hard work of losing weight.Stay tuned.

Off again

2010-10-06T15:38:00.002-07:00

211.6I decided not to go to Jen.ny Craig last Friday because I still had eight days' worth of lunches and dinners. I ate out a lot over the weekend, which is usual for me, but I have continued to eat out since, which is not.My choices haven't been terrible but they certainly haven't been the choices of anyone who is seriously trying to lose weight.So I guess I am kind-of off the wagon again.

2010-09-29T14:28:00.002-07:00

209.6My week has been fair. I still have yet to make it to the gym, though I may go tonight. I have had a few things I've eaten which were off-plan--for example, I was craving guacamole all day Monday and had some Monday night, with chips--but overall, not too bad.I hope this number holds through Friday morning's weigh-in! We shall see.

The irony

2010-09-24T10:14:00.001-07:00

209.6 (at home)210.4 (official JC WI)The irony of the fact that I officially lost 1.4 lbs this week is that I put in minimal effort. I didn't go to the gym a single time (though I did walk the dogs 5 nights, but that is far from vigorous exercise). I didn't eat all my vegetable servings each day. I had cravings for bread and for a bean burrito on two different days, and I gave in to them,

I'll take it

2010-09-17T17:45:00.001-07:00

211.6 (at home)211.8 (at official JC weigh-in)Just a quick update to say that I officially lost 2.8 lbs this past week but really, am more just back to where I was before my sister's visit.Hoping for a better week this week. . . . I really want to get under 210!

Bleh

2010-09-14T10:12:00.002-07:00

210.6I have been slowly getting back on track this week. Yesterday I ate on plan except for not quite getting in all my required fruits and veggies. Still, I did get in three servings, which is better than I usually do when eating on my own.I woke up today feeling exhausted and off. Not sure what that's about, but it certainly isn't helpful on a day when I have a lot of (mostly boring) work to

Minimal damage done

2010-09-08T09:40:00.002-07:00

211.6The scale showed the exact same number this morning as it did six days ago, when I wrote my last post. Whew. Guess I didn't do too much damage with my off-plan eating this weekend. I tried not to go crazy, but I know I didn't always make the healthiest choices, and my exercise consisted of a little swimming, a couple of walks with the dogs, and A LOT of chasing after my nephew.I had a

Hiatus

2010-09-02T10:49:00.002-07:00

211.6I am taking a li'l hiatus from Jenny Craig through next week. I wasn't great about staying on-plan last week, and my sister is coming into town tomorrow.In light of this, I am merely hoping to maintain, rather than lose. Wish me luck.

Gotcha

2010-08-27T10:04:00.003-07:00

210.6Wednesday the 25th was Sebastian's "Gotcha Day" (as his rescue organization calls it), the anniversary of the date when I adopted him. It's hard to believe he has been my dog for EIGHT years! I have now had him longer than I had my previous dog Saffron, who missed eight years by less than two weeks.Sebastian has his annoying habits, just like any dog, but he is super-smart, friendly

Hmm

2010-08-25T10:09:00.001-07:00

210.6I can't quite figure out why I always seem to weigh less in the days right after my weekly weigh-in than I do on the day of my weigh-in.

So anyway. . . .

2010-08-24T10:12:00.002-07:00

211.8 (at home)212.4 (official JC WI)I am a day late weighing in this week--had to go out of town for a deposition yesterday--and still only down 0.3 lbs from last week. Honestly? Given the level of effort I put into my eating last week, I'll take it.My week started out well, and I did make it to the gym four times. . . . but I ate four more meals out than I'd planned--I actually ate more

Query (post #700)

2010-08-19T15:23:00.003-07:00

Do you consider it disrespectful, disloyal, or otherwise inappropriate for a married man to send a woman he had a relationship with in high school a message on Fac.ebo.ok including the following:Hope all is well, you look great, and I see you are married. He is a lucky guy, you were always a sweet heart!Other factors to consider: the man in question has other ex-girlfriends on his friends list

Woohoo!

2010-08-19T14:19:00.003-07:00

210.2Yesterday was another 100% on-plan day. I didn't go to the gym but did take the dogs on a 15-minute walk.I can't wait to get under 210. It's been over 18 months since I weighed less than 210. ;-)Baby steps. . . . .

Pat on the back

2010-08-18T09:18:00.002-07:00

211.0I must pat myself on the back because I had a 100% on-plan day yesterday. I ate all my planned meals and snacks and nothing extra. I ate 6 1/2 servings of fruits and veggies (strawberries, a peach, an apple, spring mix greens, low sodium V8, cauliflower, and a banana--whew!). I drank over 3 liters of water.In addition, I went to the gym and did 32 minutes on the elliptical trainer plus

Slip

2010-08-17T10:03:00.003-07:00

211.6I must confess, I had a big slip-up eating-wise yesterday. I was feeling very down all afternoon after spending too much time entering my billable time in our computer system and generally dwelling on all the negative things in my life.I decided I was going to "treat" myself with some off-plan food. I was tempted to go to Chino Bandido again, but I didn't want to go quite that far off plan

Week 6 re-cap

2010-08-16T09:55:00.003-07:00

212.2 (at home)212.7 (official JC WI)I was down 1 more pound at this morning's official weigh-in. I am making slow but steady progress: in six weeks, I have lost 8.4 lbs. Not exactly dramatic results, but I'll take it.I suspect my loss for this week might have been a little more if not for the fact that I had dinner at my in-laws last night and ate more steak than I should have. (Probably 6-7

Plugging along

2010-08-12T12:28:00.002-07:00

212.4 (this morning)211.0 (Wednesday morning)213.7 (official JC WI on Monday night)I have been remiss in updating, primarily due to the fact that I have actually been busy at work this week for the first time in months. I'm not complaining--I actually couldn't be happier to be busy again--just explaining.My official loss for last week, based on Monday night's weigh-in, was 1.1 lbs. I'll take it

2010-08-09T12:51:00.002-07:00

212.2The scale was up a little this morning after a not-so-great eating day yesterday. Through no intent (or fault) of my own, I ended up eating breakfast at 8:15 a.m. and not having lunch until 2:00 p.m. . . . . at which time I was FAMISHED and ate one more slice of veggie pizza than I should have (plus a Hansen's soda which I didn't realize until after I'd drunk it--duh!--was not diet and in

Ya-hoo!

2010-08-07T10:26:00.001-07:00

211.2Was THRILLED by the number on the scale this morning. Looking back, I haven't been under 210 in over 18 months. Can't wait to get there!Today will be a challenge with lunch and dinner out. I had input about the places and have planned good choices. Fingers crossed that I can stay strong and stick with them.

Scale hop

2010-08-04T11:17:00.003-07:00

212.4I know some say it's bad to weigh daily, but I sure hope this morning's weight is real!

Another Tuesday

2010-08-03T10:06:00.001-07:00

214.0I thought I had a headache when I first woke up this morning. Then I realized it was just the feeling of dread at having to go to work. Ugh.The scale was kind this morning. So that's nice.My day's meals are planned, with lunch and snacks here at my office. My gym bag is packed, and I'll be meeting MM there around 6:30 this evening. I'm already on my third 12-oz glass of water of the 8

That's more like it

2010-08-02T10:05:00.002-07:00

214.8 at JC215.0 at homeI had a decent loss at this morning's WI: down 2.2 lbs. Interestingly, I believe my effort this past week was about equal to that of the two previous weeks in which I lost little or no weight; in fact, I only went to the gym twice, vs. the three to four times a week I'd gone during the other weeks. Whatever, I'll take it.This puts me at a total of 6.3 lbs lost for my

Plugging along

2010-07-28T13:22:00.002-07:00

215.6The scale was down a little this morning but still not even back to what it was this time last week. Ugh. So frustrating.I've concluded that all I can do for now is keep doing what I'm doing. Following the JC plan as diligently as I can, minimizing my eating out (and making healthy choices when I do eat out), drinking a lot of water (3 liters or so a day), and exercising at least three

Question for FB users

2010-07-26T10:27:00.001-07:00

I hesitate to post this because I wonder at this point whether anyone is even still reading. Anyway. . . . .I have a question for those of you who are on Fac.ebo.ok. What is the appropriate etiquette for dealing with a friend request from someone you know but do not like?Twice I have faced the situation where a high school classmate of mine who I haven't seen since high school graduation (

Frustrated & a little angry

2010-07-26T09:17:00.002-07:00

216.6 at home217.0 at JCDespite being 100% on plan for five out of seven days this week, I only lost 0.6 lbs at today's weigh-in. I know I should be happy to see the scale moving down at all, and I know that if I continue to lose 0.6 lbs every week, I will eventually get to my goal weight (in over two years) . . . . but I'm pissed. This morning's number on the scale was the highest one I'd seen

Sick day

2010-07-23T10:56:00.002-07:00

215.2I stayed home from work yesterday; I called in sick. I woke up feeling achy all over and just exhausted, with a slight scratchy throat, so I thought I must be coming down with something. After sleeping until nearly 11:00 a.m., I woke up feeling fine, so in retrospect I don't think I was really sick. Maybe just residual effects of staying up later than usual to watch a baseball game that

Post & dash

2010-07-21T11:39:00.002-07:00

215.0Had a 100% on plan day eating-wise yesterday, plus a very good workout at the gym: 10 minutes of weight training followed by 32 minutes on the elliptical trainer. I also drank over 3 liters of water and went for a 20-minute walk with our dogs. Yippee!Perhaps not surprisingly, my energy level yesterday was high. Too bad most of the day was spent stuck at work, but I did get a few things

Maintain

2010-07-20T14:12:00.003-07:00

216.0Yesterday's weight at home was 217.0 and at my JC centre 217.6. So I didn't lose anything for my second week; I maintained. Given how I ate over the weekend in San Diego, I'll take it.I got right back on the horse yesterday, sticking to my eating plan and drinking loads of water (nearly 3 liters). I was worn out and didn't make the gym--I hate going on Mondays anyway because it's also

Slow progress

2010-07-15T11:35:00.004-07:00

216.4Despite the fact that I skipped the gym last night (I'd signed up for an evening continuing legal education course I forgot about), the scale was still down just a little more this morning. Nice! I'll take it.My eating was 100% on program yesterday, and I am proud of myself. I didn't let Wednesday night's slip at dinner turn into a long, downward slide, as I often have in the past.I am

Why

2010-07-14T11:24:00.004-07:00

216.6Beginning around 4:00 yesterday afternoon, I was seized by a sudden yearning to eat something carb-laden and fatty. I'll admit that the inclination to go "off program" for a meal arose even earlier in the day. I had resisted the urge earlier in the day to visit Qdoba for their delicious nachos--which I had been eating at least 2-3 times a week prior to re-starting JC after the July 4th

Success!

2010-07-12T09:23:00.001-07:00

217.6The above was my weight at JC this morning. Oddly enough, it was slightly less than what I weighed on my scale at home first thing in the morning: 217.8. Go figure.This translates to 3.5 lbs lost my first week back on JC. Hooray! I was actually a little uncertain about whether I would lose weight at all because I only followed the plan religiously for five of the seven days, and I did

2010-07-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

218.8No, I didn't really lose 2.2 lbs overnight. Today's weight just takes me back to where I was last Friday morning, the day of my official first weigh-in at JC, and reflects the end to water retention caused by poor weekend food choices.Even though I understand this, it's stil nice to see the scale move (back) down.My first day of JC was OK. I had only one minor deviation from my pre-planned

Small changes

2010-07-06T10:04:00.002-07:00

221.0 (yikes!)I am absolutely horrified--though, sadly, not all that surprised--by the number on the scale this morning. I know I ate poorly yesterday, but wow. Just wow.I have a few updates from my last post (of nearly two weeks ago).I have been actively looking for, and applying for, jobs since my last post. I have an interview at another law firm on Friday morning.I decided on a whim to try

Funk

2010-06-23T13:41:00.001-07:00

218.2 I have once again been MIA from the blog for a while. Decreased attention to weight loss seems to equal decreased attention to the blog lately. I have been feeling particularly low for the last couple of days about two situations which are mostly outside my control. One is something that I don't intend to talk about on this blog (not my marriage), and the other is work. One of the legal

Hmm

2010-06-09T10:21:00.003-07:00

219.0I'm relieved to see a number under 220 on the scale this morning. I guess I was just retaining water the past few days?Sad that 219 can inspire feelings of relief rather than revulsion and a desire to reduce the number. . . .

Stymied

2010-06-07T10:24:00.004-07:00

220.6 (Oh.My.God)The number on the scale this morning is appalling to me. I am hoping that it is primarily a result of bad food choices yesterday and water retention associated with those bad food choices (which included orange chicken, a huge burrito, and In N Out burger). I have been in the 217-218 range of late, which is bad enough, but not over 220. Alarming.I'm frustrated because I have

Yawn

2010-05-24T10:33:00.004-07:00

219.2 (wow, depressing)At this point, I figure no one is even reading this blog any more. But it's still good for me to write about my feelings and chronicle my efforts.As evidenced not only by the number on the scale above but also by the fact that I recently became winded walking up 5 flights of steps to my car in a parking garage, I desperately need to get my weight under control. I know how

SNAFU

2010-05-05T10:30:00.003-07:00

216.4My blog is sadly neglected of late. I have nothing to write about. Life is uneventful, unless you want to read my complaints about work and billable hours, and who wants to read that? (I am looking for another job, but it's not the ideal time to be job hunting.)I am off the wagon again with healthy eating and exercise. I walk the dogs most evenings and make it to the gym maybe once a

Upward trend

2010-04-22T09:38:00.002-07:00

217.0I spoke too soon yesterday about the headaches; not two hours after I wrote my post, I developed a headache which persisted through aspirin and a cup of tea and was only relieved after I broke down and took some ibu.prof.en. Thankfully not a migraine but still annoying when I've been doing so well off caffeine.The scale is up more today. I sometimes why I bother to weigh myself (almost)

(almost) caffeine-free

2010-04-21T09:45:00.004-07:00

216.2It has been 13 days today since I last had a cup of coffee. My horrible migraines of the third weekend of April convinced me that perhaps I should have another go at giving up caffeine. While I have still had tea on occasion, at this point I have eliminated my daily morning cup of coffee entirely.I'm not gonna lie; quitting has not been easy. Last week in particular was hard. . . . I felt

Memory Lane

2010-04-14T12:10:00.004-07:00

(forgot to weigh)I've been thinking for a while about posting an excerpt from my one of my teenage diaries, just for fun. I'd thought, in fact, about posting about my first sexu.al experience, which I wrote about in detail the day after it happened.So last night I dug out the journal for the relevant time period, and the first entry, dated June 14, 1986, began as follows:"Sometimes I get so sick

Mixed bag

2010-04-12T11:02:00.003-07:00

216.2This weekend was a mixture of good and bad. The good included lots of "quality time" with MM. We went to the zoo on Saturday and out to lunch after, and went to a movie (Date Night) together on Sunday afternoon. Because my mom had been in town from early March until Easter, it had actually been a while since MM and I went out and did something fun, just the two of us.We also had lunch

I suck

2010-04-07T10:11:00.000-07:00

215.8Into week three "off the wagon." Wow, I think that's longer than I lasted on South Beach this go 'round.Ate Mexican/Chinese fusion for dinner last night (delicious but NOT a healthy choice)No exercise all week (I've even skipped a few dog walks)Scale is, predictably, climbingUnmotivated to change courseI suck. Why do I hate my body so much?

#667

2010-03-30T10:21:00.002-07:00

215.2I have been sitting at 666 posts for a few days, and though I really don't have much to write about, I decided I need to post because it was getting a little creepy seeing that number. ;-)Probably not a surprise to anyone who has been reading this blog for a while: I used my trip to Las Vegas and lack of fresh foods in my house upon my return as a convenient excuse for slacking on the

Choices

2010-03-25T16:28:00.003-07:00

214.4I think it's normal to have days that make you question your life choices, even if only for a moment. (I know I had those days often when I was a hospital nurse.) I remember my ex-fiance SL used to say that when he was walking to court each morning, pulling a roller-bag full of files, he would look at the homeless people lounging on the grassy knoll en route and wonder if perhaps they

I'm back

2010-03-24T09:52:00.003-07:00

214.6I am back at work this morning following our extended-weekend trip to Las Vegas. The trip was good. The weather was nice, and we spent some time relaxing at the Mandalay Bay Beach. Our suite was awesome! My birthday itself was good: we spent most of the day at the Beach, and then went out for a delicious dinner at Nove' at The Palms, followed by O at Bellagio. Our seats at O ended up

Random Tuesday

2010-03-16T08:21:00.002-07:00

215.2I started adding "good" carbs back into my diet on Saturday. Since then, I've eaten fruit, whole grain bread, and brown rice. I also had a piece of cheesecake at my in-laws' on Sunday evening. Between these two factors, the scale jumped back up to 215.something yesterday and has stayed there.I am not overly discouraged because I am still consistently down from the 220 I was when I started

Downward trend

2010-03-11T11:18:00.004-07:00

213.8I was quite surprised to see this morning's number on the scale. We had dinner at Red Lob.ster last night, and while I avoided carbs (except for one small bite of a biscuit), my dinner was certainly higher in fat and in sodium than what I would normally eat if I had dinner at home. Truth be told, I was expecting to see the number on the scale go up this morning. Maybe this South Beach

My husband says I'm cruel

2010-03-10T09:55:00.004-07:00

214.6I'm still rockin' the South Beach. It's gotten easier, truth be told. The exercise still hasn't picked up, but I am walking the dogs for 20 minutes each night, so that's something.I woke this morning to headlines about the death-by-overdose of 80s star Cor.ey Ha.im. I must confess, he is little more than a familiar name to me. While I have no doubt seen a couple of his movies when they

Weekend re-cap

2010-03-08T09:31:00.003-07:00

216.0 (too bad; yesterday's was 215.4)I enjoyed my weekend, and my eating was pretty good. I ate a big and late-ish dinner last night, which I believe is the reason the scale is up slightly this morning from the day before. Nevertheless, I am down 4 lbs today from where I was a week ago, so I'll take it!The weekend weather put a damper on my exercise plans. I did take the dogs for their walk

Quickie

2010-03-05T09:33:00.002-07:00

215.8 or 216.8 (depending on which step on the scale is to be believed)All in all, I think I did pretty well yesterday. As I'd anticipated, I got in no exercise, but I did say no to the delicious boxtys and Irish soda bread being served at the Irish pub where we had dinner. . . both of which were very tempting. I had a huge salad with grilled chicken breast for lunch, broccoli and cauliflower

I'll take it

2010-03-04T09:08:00.001-07:00

216.4Yesterday was not a perfect day, but I'll take it. I ended up eating a little bit of crispy tortilla strips which were in my southwestern chicken salad for dinner and two cheese sticks, and I only walked 20 minutes, or a little over 1 mile, for exercise, but considering I had a bad headache in the afternoon and my mom arrived around 5:00 p.m., I'll count it as a good day.Progress not

Firing on all cylinders

2010-03-03T12:07:00.002-07:00

216.8The scale shows down another pound today. This is all the more satisfying given that I started my period today, which usually means a temporary gain on the scale. Even though I know this is not true "weight loss," it's still nice to see a lower number. . . . makes me feel that I am getting closer to being under 200 (my immediate, short-term goal) all the time. ;-)Yesterday was a pretty

Pizza, the temptor

2010-03-02T08:14:00.002-07:00

217.8I continue to chuckle at how much the scale lies. Really? I lost 2.2 lbs since yesterday morning? I think not.My first day back on SB was pretty good. I had a little bit of an energy crash in the afternoon, probably due to the fact that I ate no carbs at all. (I'd slept great and had no other explanation for my slump.) I also felt faintly nauseated after eating 3 1/2 servings of

Recommitting

2010-03-01T12:41:00.002-07:00

220.0I restarted the South Beach diet today for about the 50th time (OK, maybe more like the tenth or eleventh.) I am helping my sister stay on track as she loses weight in preparation for her 20th high school reunion in June. Obviously I should be working on losing weight for my own reasons, but I'll take this as a motivator for now.In addition to doing SB, we are going to walk 2 miles a day,

Humdrum

2010-02-23T10:27:00.006-07:00

218.0Lately I am feeling like I am just living each day. I don't mean that statement in the positive, Zen way in which it might be interpreted (though I believe that there is certainly something to be said for living in the present and enjoying each moment.)I mean that I am not taking a global view of my life or working toward any medium- or long-term goals. I just get up each morning and do

The scale lies

2010-02-22T10:52:00.003-07:00

218.2I was totally perplexed by the number I saw on the scale this morning. I was out of town all weekend, so today is the first time I'd weighed myself since Thursday morning, when the scale showed 220.0. I did not have a good weekend food-wise: I attended a baby shower on Saturday and ate brownies and cake (among other things). Yesterday's food consisted of huevos rancheros and a caffe mocha

Magical thinking

2010-02-19T15:09:00.003-07:00

We all engage in magical thinking from time to time. I was aware of it just this week while watching the Olympics. . . . like somehow my holding my breath or yelling "look out!" will help a downhill skier who's about to crash or the figure skater whose landing looks wobbly.This afternoon, I have been engaging in another type of magical thinking. . . . thinking that I somehow caused something bad

Like a broken record

2010-02-18T10:24:00.002-07:00

220.0 (ugh)I have been filled with self-loathing the past several weeks as I have watched the scale creeping slowly and inexorably up, up, up. However, my self-loathing has provided me with little to no motivation to stop its climb. (Why I even bother to weigh every morning is beyond me.) My eating habits, while never great, have not really changed that much since Christmas, and yet I am now

You decide

2010-02-12T09:55:00.002-07:00

220.6 (OMG, I really weigh 220)A certain couple I know recently had a disagreement about a minor issue, but I want to get my readers' take on who was in the right and who was in the wrong."A" and "B" are a married couple. (I am purposely going to refrain from telling you the genders of either spouse to avoid gender bias.) Because A knew that B was only working four hours today and would not be

Yet another sign that I am a terrible person

2010-02-09T12:35:00.002-07:00

219.4As is likely apparent from previous posts, I spend a little time on Fac.ebo.ok every day. (OK, some days more than a little.) One of the features of the site is the "news feed" which informs you about the activities of your "friends" . . . . like their status updates, whether they have posted photos or links to websites, and--most germane to this post--whether they have changed their

February's not off to a good start

2010-02-03T08:01:00.003-07:00

On February 1, I had to leave work after only a couple of hours due to a worsening migraine. . . . and then deal with an additional "headache" trying to get my prescription migraine medicine that our insurance decided it will not pay for.On February 2, I woke up with a red, painful right eye which grew worse through the day. By afternoon, I'd decided I needed to go to the eye doctor and was

So. . . .

2010-02-02T13:51:00.002-07:00

218.2Recently I received an invitation from a law school classmate to participate in the Breast Cancer 3-Day Walk this November. I was gung ho to do something for a great cause. . . . until I started thinking about what preparation for this event would actually entail.The 3-Day consists of walking 20 miles a day, 3 consecutive days, for a total of 60 miles. There are rest stops along the route

Hometown

2010-01-29T10:18:00.003-07:00

I think I've figured out why I have trouble remembering people from my hometown, and it's not due to early onset dementia. It's due to the fact that I HATE(D) MY HOMETOWN and most of the people in it!I graduated from high school in 1988. Recently there has been talk on Fac.ebo.ok about the fact that the alumni from the classes of 1980 through 1989 are having an 80s reunion there this summer. A

Early onset dementia?

2010-01-25T10:50:00.003-07:00

Ever since I have been active on Fac.ebo.ok the past year or so, I have noticed that I can't seem to remember many people from my hometown. It's almost like I've blocked out a significant portion of my years there. I'm not sure if this is common or not, but I am a little bothered by it.As I may have mentioned before, my sister V and I grew up in a small town. Our four-year high school had only

14 months

2010-01-21T09:49:00.003-07:00

219.8I had the hardest time getting up this morning because the overcast weather made it dark outside so that it seemed much earlier than it actually was. I not-so-fondly remembered my days working 12-hour day shifts in the hospital when I had to get to work while it was still dark and leave in the dark as well a significant portion of the year. (Working 12-hour night shifts was no better.)

Dear Fac.ebo.ok

2010-01-20T10:42:00.001-07:00

??--forgot to weighDear Fac.ebo.ok,I am not a mom. I don't know why you think I am a mom, when my profile lists no children and I have never mentioned children to anyone, in any fashion, on your site.Given that I'm not a mom, I am not interested in meeting other moms, winning free diapers, learning about local Montessori schools, or hearing about the government paying moms to go back to school.

Things I Wish I'd Known 20 Years Ago

2010-01-19T15:07:00.003-07:00

219.8 (eek!)There is nothing wrong with setting the bar low. In fact, lower (or at least realistic) expectations are a good way to avoid disappointment and upset.I will never be "hip" or "with it," no matter how hard I try or how much money I spend.You will never please everyone, so work on pleasing yourself and those close to you.Even people whose lives seem "perfect" have problems.Dogs, good

Among the living

2010-01-13T10:32:00.004-07:00

I spent most of yesterday in bed after waking up with a headache that would not go away. I also had a scratchy throat, some discomfort in my right ear and just generally felt off, so it's probably better that I got a lot of extra rest.Today I feel mostly back to normal, still a little tired. My head has the usual dull ache I get the day after a long-lasting headache but doesn't really

Bad but not illegal

2010-01-11T08:13:00.001-07:00

OK, based on the comments on my last post, I fear I may have left a misimpression. This a-hole from high school did not rape me: as I told one person who emailed me, he broke my heart but did not break the law.Our sexual encounter was consensual, though I do believe that this person took advantage of my naivete, being older and more experienced himself. The really awful thing(s) he did to me

Random musing

2010-01-08T14:31:00.002-07:00

216.6I noticed recently that the guy who was my "first" (and under less than ideal circumstances too long to go into here) is now on Fac.ebo.ok. Fac.ebo.ok actually suggested him as a "friend" for me--hardeeharhar--but I declined.Though we are not "friends," he is apparently not bright enough to setup his profile so that stalkers like me who aren't on his Friends list can't see his photos and

The Aughts

2010-01-06T14:22:00.005-07:00

One of my favorite bloggers (whose blog is password protected, so I cannot post a link) blogged the milestones she considered significant for the past decade. Her post prompted me to think of my own milestones over the past ten years. Here they are. . . .From 2000- 2009, in no particular order, I:Came to live in Arizona (in January 2000) and have been here--either in Tucson or in Phoenix--ever

Twenty Questions

2010-01-05T15:50:00.002-07:00

216.8I ran across this email while clearing out my email folders. Someone I met on the sparkpeople message boards asked me to answer these questions for some college class project she was doing. I enjoyed re-reading my answers, and I don't think they'd be much different today if I filled this out. I thought others might enjoy reading them, too. (I added the parts in brackets today before posting

This feels wrong. . . .

2010-01-04T15:41:00.004-07:00

I am listening to the Twilight Original Motion Picture Soundtrack. Lest you think I would purchase such a thing for myself, allow me to explain: I bought it as a birthday gift for M, the little girl on whose case I am a CASA. I felt it my duty to listen to make sure that none of the song lyrics were explicit or inappropriate for a 10-year-old before giving it to her.I actually like all the

2010 Resolutions

2010-01-01T00:01:00.001-07:00

Yeah, I'm going to make some resolutions this year. At the risk of coming across negative and defeatist, I want to (semi-) publicly admit that some of these are resolutions I have made before and failed to fulfill. But you know the old Japanese saying: fall down seven times, get up eight. I'll never achieve any of these goals by throwing up my hands in defeat.Without further ado, here are the

2009 Retrospective

2009-12-31T00:01:00.000-07:00

(I have been working on this post for weeks. Given the year I've had, I found it a bit difficult to complete. Because tomorrow is the last day of the year, I finally managed to finish it today. Bring on 2010!)Top ten things that happened in my life this year (in no particular order)1. Visited NYC with MM (his first time visiting the city)2. Learned to play the piano3. Was a godmother

Is it just me?

2009-12-29T16:52:00.002-07:00

Just wondering how many of you keep track of whether the people to whom you send holiday cards send you one back. And if you do keep track, how long would you continue to send a card to someone who did not reciprocate?To clarify, I am not talking here about people who are an active part of my day-to-day life and that I talk to regularly. I'm talking more about friends and extended family

A few thoughts. . . . none of them deep

2009-12-28T10:16:00.003-07:00

Christmas week is not a good time to start (or re-start) an exercise program.I never enjoy green chile sauce made outside New Mexico. I should remember this and not order anything with green chile sauce in Arizona because I will invariably be disappointed.No one wanted to come back to work today.Over eight years after leaving the field of nursing, I am still having dreams about going home after

Back on track (again)

2009-12-21T10:12:00.003-07:00

217.0It's so nice to start the work week on Monday morning after having had a truly fun and relaxing weekend for a change. Seems like lately I have been in the doldrums a lot, and my weekends have not been very enjoyable.Friday afternoon was our office holiday party. This year it was lunch followed by a few hours of games at Dave & Buster's. It was a lot of fun! After the party, I picked up my

I picked a good one

2009-12-18T09:49:00.002-07:00

Last night after I went to bed, my wonderful husband booked us a trip to Vegas for the weekend of my birthday. I love going to Las Vegas, though I can only spend 3-4 days there and only wliketo go no more often than once a year. . . . for me, a little Vegas goes a long way. ;-)We are going to stay in a SUITE at Mandalay Bay, reserve a cabana by the pool for one whole day, and go to see the

Lovely Monday

2009-12-14T10:02:00.002-07:00

215.2I hope I didn't offend anyone with my last post. It was cathartic for me to get those thoughts down in writing. And talking with people who read it reminded me that, as bad as 2009 has been, it could have been a lot worse. I really do have more good than bad in my life, and I am fully aware of it. It's just that the bad has been so soul-sucking for a while that it's easy to lose sight of

The Christmas letter I wanted to write

2009-12-10T05:00:00.002-07:00

[Note: I would obviously never REALLY send this out as my Christmas letter. In years past, I have really enjoyed writing and sending a Christmas letter, but it was always with a positive spin. I didn't write one this year. Perhaps when you read what I've written here--in jest--you'll understand why.]As usual, 2009 has been an eventful year.In January, to kick off the new year, we embarked on a

The Boys

2009-12-09T05:00:00.002-07:00

Here is a photo I considered sending out in the Christmas cards rather than taking a "family" photo. However, MM said that, as pathetic as it is to send out photos of us with our dogs, it would be even more pathetic to send out photos of the dogs alone.I took this picture of the boys the day after Sebastian's recent 8th birthday. The occasion was not just his birthday but also that they had

Happy Holidays

2009-12-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

My sister suggested I share our Christmas card photo on the blog, so here it is.Merry Christmas and Happy New Year from the B-M household. (Sebastian has the red bow; Hunter has the green.)

Holiday Cheer

2009-12-07T06:00:00.000-07:00

In the interest of posting something a little more upbeat, I bring you our holiday decorating, such as it is. . . . .Isn't our tree little? It is artificial; we bought it 50% off at the local hardware store just before Christmas last year. Neither of us wants anything bigger--there just isn't space--and we don't want to hassle with a real tree and its pine needle shedding.Note the tree skirt.

Stuck

2009-12-05T10:55:00.003-07:00

213.2 (<-- go figure: I ate a big, sodium-and-fat-laden takeout meal for dinner last night) Lately I feel stuck. Although there are many good things in my life and I am able, at least on an intellectual level, to acknowledge them, I am once again feeling that I am not where I want to be in my life. For weeks, I have felt that I am suffering from a mild depression; nothing serious enough to

Peeves & Pleasures Thursday

2009-12-03T10:03:00.001-07:00

214.4PEEVESHaving less than $10 in my checking account until payday (tomorrow).Going to the post office during the month of DecemberNon-stop Christmas music (and it's only December 3rd. . . )PLEASURESCurling up with a good bookTalking with an old friend I haven't seen in yearsBooking a flight for an upcoming trip

Humpday

2009-12-02T11:56:00.002-07:00

213.8It's a sad commentary on how little I've been doing around the house lately that I felt disproportionately proud of myself last night for cleaning the bathroom sinks/vanities, dusting, loading/running the dishwasher and putting away some laundry. Thank goodness my husband is a neatnik who regularly tidies up, does dishes, and vacuums and/or mops the floors, or our house would be in a sad

11/30/09

2009-11-30T09:48:00.002-07:00

215.6I'm still feeling disinclined to blog but wanted to check in--in case anyone actually still reads my blog--and say that I'm alive and things are going fine.MM and I spent Thanksgiving with my dad and stepmom in New Mexico. We all got along fine, and our travel was uneventful. Last Saturday was our first wedding anniversary. MM sent me a beautiful mixed bouquet of flowers to commemorate

Wah. . . .

2009-11-19T10:54:00.003-07:00

213.2(No Peeves & Pleasures today because in my current mood, I would only be listing peeves)I woke up with a migraine Tuesday morning at 5:30, and it has been present to some degree or another ever since then. Even as I type this, I have a dull throbbing in my head and feel "off." In addition, I started my period early Wednesday morning and have had some bad cramps. Lovely.Nevertheless, I

Not feelin' it

2009-11-16T08:55:00.003-07:00

213.0As anyone who is still reading has probably guessed from my lack of recent posts, I continue to not feel much like blogging. (I also still haven't written a single word for NaNoWriMo. One more broken promise to myself. . . ) Again, my lack of interest isn't due to being particularly busy or anything else I can pinpoint. It just is.I am proud to note that, despite the fact that I have not

PEEVES & PLEASURES THURSDAY

2009-11-12T10:05:00.001-07:00

(212.4)PEEVESPartners who think that the assignment they have given me is the only, and/or most important, thing I have to get donePeople who don't return phone calls or answer lettersPeople who don't do their jobsPLEASURESHaving the whole bed to myselfHigh-thread-count sheetsCheese